scary dream....

Hi Diary... how are u? hmmm had half day off today... my manager insisted... she wanna gimme half a day off every wk to do my FYP... but usually i juz come home and rest haha~

Wow.. it's coming to the end of junE~! that's Reaallllyyyy faz~! gonna be pay day soon~! hahaha... not much but at least its $$$.... haha... nothing much for me to do lately actually... most of the time i've been trying to act bz haha~~~ the colleague that juz joined the co... quite a nice person... easy to get along with... kind of chatty... hit it off quite well though.. hee~ anyway she's there to stay.. i'm not.. haha~

there's this colleague in another office that i find irritating... everytime she asks me to do something... she wun even say thanks! and she wun even bother to look at u when u hand her the docs she wan... i think its quite rude... i mean.... she's working on a work permit... and i dun see wat gives her the right to be so smug.... always trying to act like she can make alot of decisions... and i HATE the way she talks to my boss and directors.... the way she tries to joke with them and make herself significant... YUCKS! but anyway.... i'll be leaving soon.. so i shall not bother myself with such issues~! *counting down to last day!*

since i came home early today... went to take a noon nap.... and this time... i had such a shocking dream that i awoke with fear and anxiety.. i dreamt that my dad had a stroke again... and he was struggling so hard at the hospital trying to lift his hand with his mouth twitched to one side so hard that he was trembling... in the dream we were persuading him to give up and juz go... for we can see him having such a hard time that its aching us...

not the first time that i dreamt of this... there's still this constant fear all the time... i get so scared... dunno y i had such dreams again.... maybe my subconscious mind was processing this fear all the time? on my way home on the train today... i thot back to the time when he first had the stroke... come this 1st july... it'll be exactly one year.. in my mind i relived the strain, trauma and heart wrenching experience... it was really a difficult time... things are Sooo much better now... and i really thank god for it.... i made up my mind to use this experience as a form of spur for me to endure and persevere thru tough times in the future ahead... so... i'll be more resilient~!!!

alright.. today's a shorter post... will get back to u again soon!

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