gratitude

Hi Diary... wanna share something nice with u today~~~!!!

hmmm well... my bday is coming soon... but well.. to me bdays really dun mean anything to me anymore haha... but that's a separate issue from wat my frens do for me~!

last nite... had sakae a-la-carte dinner with my sec sch frens... really appreciate that they can all make it... i guess its a mutual effort that all of us always make in meeting up with each other during our bdays.. we don't give each other presents anymore... an agreement by all of us... though we dun meet each other often... i feel that we share a subtle frenship.. deep down in our hearts there's always a place for each other... one sad thing is that... this bud of mine who has been with me from primary sch.. one of those among my this clique... she has started working.. to a certain extent i think she's really drifting further and further everytime i meet her.. as in physically she's there... but mentally she's not... she's not the kind that goes in depth with others.. guess she only trust her own family members... and i guess her upbringing has made her a more self centred person... in any case... i really appreciate time with them together... cosy and warm... being free and sort of always feel so innocent as i always think of those sec sch days when we were all so carefree and innocent.... Dear gals... Thank you so much~

today... had a project meeting... supposed to have dinner.. but when the time has come.. i was still at home having meeting! in the end took cab down... din really wanna get myself caught up with the cab fare since it was supposed to be a happy occasion... hmmm i was so hungry when i got there the first thing i thot of was to order food... i noticed weird expressions but i was too tired or rather too sick to react.. so i juz played along.. din wanna spoil their fun anyway~ haha... so we had dinner and then the cake came in... which sort of surprised me a little haha... so not bad... haha.. the cake was really gd i muz admit... haha but imagine me having to serve my own bday cake... but well... dun wanna make too much grumbles bout that... haha... wat really caught me by surprise was the alcoholic drink that the restaurant offered as a complimentary.. it was an eye opener.. and the drink did made me feel abit drunk cos i guess i drank too fast... haha...

in any case.. i muz apologise if i did look hmm... unhappy or unaccommodating as i was quite disturbed by the death of a relative.. which i may blog about in my next entry if chance permits.. and another thing was obvious.. i was sick~! haha....

i received a bottle with messages... most of them were juz simple messages wishing me happy bday... there were 3 personalised messages though... one with a lipstick which i thot was really quite innovative and funky~ hahaha.... another 2 with messages other than happy bday... haha... well.. i mean i appreciate every single message... its rude of me to demand for more but i gladly accept wat i have... it suddenly dawned on me that the person whom i see almost everyday said nothing more than happy bday.. i was thinking.. am i only worth that 2 words to u??? well... as i said... its rude of me to demand... i can only infer how much i mean to u... haha....

well well... all said and done.. i muz say i really appreciate the whole event... and i muz again thank eh... i know how badly u wanted to give me a memorable experience... and i have received ur thots and kept it with me... i cant say how much i am grateful to u... but i will definitely reciprocate... Dearest guys and gals... thank you for making an effort... i sincerely appreciate it...

Effort Is Not About Using Busy As A Convenient Excuse~!