iAware

Hi Diary, was so tempted to blog yesterday but i was juz too tired... suddenly felt lots of emotions inside me...

hmmm ok... there was this session yesterday... such sessions always made me v confused at the end of the day no matter how many times i attended it.. and worst of all.. i always end up shedding tears~! haha...

well... for most of the activities yesterday, i've been through it before.. but wat's different this time is that i have all my sisters and frens with me...

the day went by well... the grad game.. got me quite frustrated i felt like walking out of my team.. i really din like my lead mentor.. cos i thot he was literally managing us.. sounded so domineering.. and aft that when he told us bout his background i was like.. no wonder he's so domineering! at the end of the day.. i seriously considered dropping out of the program... cos i dunno how am i going to work with him... he's so different from lye.. who really has a passion in working with pple, guiding them to find the paths they want.. yeah he rocks~

one of the reasons why i procrastinate dropping out is cos of my buddy... i think he is really a great guy and he has really facilitated me well in the mere one day of training.. another reason is cos i cant find the courage to say i wanna drop out....

i said that i was confused.. and yes i really am.. cos i think such sessions are the only times that i face so upfront with myself... wat i really wan... and i realised that my family really means alot to me... i really hope that my brother will do well in his studies and not get bullied in society in future... oh yes let me sidetrack... i've always wanted to tell eh that i think she is a great sister.. it is so evident from the way i see her taking care of her sister during our training session at the company.. she is always ready to defend and guide her sister along.. eh.. u are really a great sis~!

ok back... hmmm when i was alone on the bus home last night... i suddenly couldnt control my tears.. i had to keep wiping my tears to prevent weird looks... that's when i acknowledged that i really cherish my frens and sisters... i guess in my life.. i've been too bz and especially lately i keep to myself most of the times... i've always been suppressing my feelings and such sessions are the only times that i acknowledge my feelings..

i've also realised that my sisters really mean alot to me... i dun really know why i felt moody yesterday after the training but i really din wan to talk to anyone except my sisters... so yeah.. i'm really glad to have them in my life..

and as for my frens... of cos u know who u are... i'm really glad to have u too! i think this program will bond us closer when we understand ourselves and each other at the same time... and i muz admit that i badly wan the guys (since the gals have been thru it before).. to take home learning pts which will be with them for life.. cos i think this will greatly benefit them.. well.. i cant emphasize that strong enuff but i really wan to see all of u shine and be wat u can be... so far so gd.. but i'm not sure if one of them will get it.. cos he mentioned to me that he wasnt sure if he was more aware of himself but he knows frens will support each other all the way.. yes i agree its a valid pt but that's not my pt that i wan him to get! so i said.. no.. i really wan u to learn something bout urself and i muz clarify that with u.. i hope he really gets it..

lye said some v inspiring things to us that i think is really worth remembering.. though i cant remember most of it now haha... anyway one thing he said (maybe not exactly) was something like.. 'when another person's path shines, you have the credit cos u helped to light up that path' something like that... and he also said something bout.. 'choice is wat u can do given such a situation.. not wat u can choose to change the situation.'.. something like that as well.. i really cant remember exactly haha...

i am really looking forward to the 2 day training program with the students..which will be more empowering and amazing... =)

A Salute To My Family And Frens~!