行尸走肉。。。

亲爱的日记，你好！一直以来都想用华文写一篇，但却一直没有做到。。。

其实我觉得华文比较能够写出一个人的心情。。。 好啦。。 开始了！！

最近，还没考完试就回去工作了。。 但不知为什么反而蛮开心回去上班。。 哈哈。。。 可能是钱的关系吧。。。好啦。。说些认真的。。。

这群朋友不知最近怎么了。。 大家似乎变得很陌生。。。 表面上嘻嘻哈哈的，但其实内有乾坤。。。 心理的想法都没老老实实的说出来。。。 再这样下去，我们该何去何从呢？？？ 现在不是追问谁对谁错的时候，而是接受事实，再思考下一步是什么。。。 当然，或许因为我是旁观者，不能完全体会当局者的心情。。。 然而，我也相信让大家冷静一下，是目前最好的方法。。。 亲爱的朋友，请恕我在这件事的无能，我实在不知该怎么办。。。

typing in chinese is really slow... so for the time being i'll continue in eng first else i will forget wat i wanna say~! anyway wat do i feel bout this whole issue... i think its a total misfortune~! honestly i haven seen things come to this stage... in the first place... this is the first time i encounter such a scenerio~! of cos the ideal is for all to be happy and contented with their lots.. but this doesnt seem the case... in a way i wun say that the current state is gd or bad... i guess it depends on different perspectives.. i choose to stay neutral in this situation as i really do not know how to judge...

i think i've been too caught up with my own affairs lately to understand wat's happening outside me... but this is a way i choose it to be... to be self-centred... maybe i've always been like that??? haha... anyway perhaps this is also running from reality.. obviously i know i am having problems with some frens as well... but then.... i choose to close an eye...

somehow i feel that i feel quite negative lately with the spate of incidents and my own life... seems like i cant get anything that i wan... maybe more specifically... hmmm.... well.... i've been trying to move someone.. but somehow he's been so cold.. i thot i saw some improvements previously but lately it seems that this problem has never been resolved... i am so tired... why izzit so difficult to find someone whom reciprocates??? when i thot that i was ready to love again... such a thing happens... make me feel so withdrawn... perhaps i shld have nv opened myself to such an option... i keep bumping into cold walls.. and i end up hurting myself with disappointments.... so............... for now..... i will be like wat i have been for the past few years... stay cold hearted and juz enjoy the feeling of being carefree and steer clear of emotions...

God Bless~!