update(s)

hey diary.. i wrote an entry this noon but i dunno how come it nv got published.. spent quite some time writing that... and now that i am editing this post i see the weird interface.. wat's wrong???

anyway i juz came back from clubbing... hmmm din have a gd time though... din like the music and the crowd... anyway it was a gd experience.. at least i know wat i like better hehe... spent quite some money though but well... this is the phase of celebration in my life right now... so i spoil myself rotten haha... went clubbing on wed nite too... its like the whole world was there.. met many pple... it was also so crowded that i din have space to move.. think the first time that i went was still better....

lately... time seems to fly faz and i dun really know wat i've been doing since exam ended on may.. haha.. worked and tuitions kept me bz i guess.. the last dash to get money before the trip... so that i can have a comfortable holiday... then been watching online dramas and reading for entertainment... i expected a bz may but now that the camp was postponed due to insufficent participants i have this wkend free... and aft that i'm off for my maiden trip on an aeroplane~! looking fwd~! cant believe it is happening~! it seems like sooo long when we registered at the fair in late march... aye aye.... time flies darling...

as for wat i mentioned in my last entry... i guess i wrote it when i was not stabilised... things seem to be better now... although i will keep reminding myself mentally of wat i learnt...

in any case, my main concern now seems to be work.. sigh~ brings a frown everytime i think about it.. went for a psychometric test today, ytd i mean. early in the morn and i realised that juz for that batch alone i have 5 other competitors. tough competition but i think i tried my best. the rest i have no control... probably i should juz enjoy the trip first and worry bout it when i come back...

been feeling v lost these 2 days... no craving for food and no enthusiasm to do anything, which is unlike me.. i seriously wonder wat's wrong... at this moment i realised that i probably really cant be in too close contact with others.... i dunno but i feel like everytime i get too close conflicts arise v easily.. maybe not an open showdown but somehow may get displeased? and i also realised that i will usually distant myself from pple when i feel that i am too close with them... i wonder which causes which....

suddenly thot of the pple around me... my uni and jc mates most of them are travelling now... its like taking turns to come and go that kind of thing.... and i realised that co clique is getting quite well with their own lives lately... is this the way things will eventually become? me doing my own things and my frens doing theirs.... hmmmm.............

catch up with u soon... the next time might probably be when i come back from my trip... take care darling~

I Know, I Can, I Will~!